Thursday, August 30, 2012

What makes me apprehensive about public speaking?

      I remember my first speech 8 years ago. It was terrible. I couldn't be focused on my speech but I was focused on people who listened to me. The major my fearfulness was how people were estimating me and forming their opinion about my personality as who I am but not about my speech. I practice my speech everyday with everybody in simple conversation and after do estimation what was right ad what was wrong. Today I can say that my anxiety about public speaking is delivering message with right sense. Does it make any sense?:-)
     It hard to admit but during my speech my mouth becomes dry and it's making me hard to pronounce every word clear, especially in Russian language we have letter "R" and I can't pronounce it. And if I see that somebody yawning or seems like boring I usually start to think how interesting my topic is or what's wrong with my speech and my mind going blank and I feel increasing of my heart rate and everybody can see my shaky hands and uncertainly in my voice.
     Also I feel lack confidence in my abilities as a public speaker because English is not my first language and I feel uncertain about my accent and ability to pronounce words correctly.
     Nevertheless I'm not going to give up because something make me apprehensive about public speaking but I will be working on my weaknesses in public speaking and develop different ways to manage my speech anxiety.
   

1 comment:

  1. Yes, I feel the same way about public speaking.
    Also, I would like to say that it is amazing how quickly you have learned English and how well you speak it.
    I enjoyed your Exploring Culture speech about your path to becoming a CNA. I too have hopes of pursuing a career in the health sciences, possibly as a Certified Nurse Practitioner, as a Certified Nurse's Assistant or as a Physician's Assistant or as a Physician.
    This public speaking class is my first step on that journey. And your speech inspired me to explore the possibilities and served as a reminder that with time and hard work, I will achieve my goals. So thanks.
    And you seemed less nervous than me! :)

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